heavens, i've been inactive. i'm still doing the art thing, but not as much decent digital stuff as i'd like to admit. i've been occasionally working on some tss stuff, so maybe i'll get around to fixing everything up. oh and i met some lovely tss fans on tumblr and now i've begun ripping the episodes from my tss dvds so i can put them up on mediafire for downloading and watching. i don't have much done yet, but hopefully i'll get it all up soon.
let's see... real world stuff next? currently i'm procrastinating studying, but it's constantly so loud here i couldn't focus even if i tried. i don't know if i've ever mentioned this, but a while ago we moved in with my mom's boyfriend. fortunately it means financial stability (though, just about all the money goes to the bills and rent... honestly i'd go back to living without hot water and heat (which we have now but we're too poor to really use it) if it meant i had money to spend on other necessities, but at least ebt covers food costs almost decently). unfortunately, it means having to share our 2 bedroom apartment with his three undisciplined, loud, spoiled and obnoxious children. we might actually have spare cash if their father didn't have to pay so goddamn much in child support and alimony to them, but i should have expected this kind of bullshit--even though they're here every weeknight.
i hate to say it, but i almost miss living in a 1-bedroom apartment with my parents before my mom divorced my dad. he's homeless now and constantly making us feel awful about it, but i'm sorry if i don't like being emotionally abused and having to watch my mom be both that and physically abused? idk. her current boyfriend is a bit of an apathetic douche and it's making me miss my dad's surprising empathy.
for about a month or two i was dealing with (what i think was) situational depression, and it's still not entirely finished with me, but it's gotten better these past couple of weeks. school has been shit because of it. my grades didn't suffer too badly, but they're definitely lower than usual... i have this constant 'shit, i can't afford to fail high school' mentality in the back of my head, but then there's the 'you're too numb to do this right now' and the 'as long as you get a job without homework, you'll be fine' mentalities, but it's not fun being so conflicted.
i'm not sure what else there is, but i really should go study. i have to learn everything we've been doing this past week by tomorrow because i can't focus in class and my teachers like to put tests all on the same day. i'm just a bit of a mess at the moment~
Reading: lord of the flies